The past couple of days have been devastating among my circle of friends.
the first, was when a dear friends sister died in a terrible car accident. She left behind children and… it’s just tragic how quickly life can suddenly end.
Yesterday morning, a dear friend took herself from the world.
I still can’t process this very well.
I’m still waiting for someone to come out and say it was all a prank. A scam, a joke. Anything.
For my phone to go “Bing!” and it to be a text from her. One of her random ‘Just wanted to let you know you’re awesome’ or ‘Sending love!’ texts.
Just for her to still be among us.
But…. it’s not going to happen.
Even her mom is talking about what they’re going to do. Hold a service, cremate, spread the ashes up in Canada.
I had concerns my stronger dose of anti-depressants would get me to that space where you just couldn’t feel…
But I was wrong.
My heart hurts, my head hurts, my eyes hurt, my body hurts… I just… wish we could have known she was so bad off. That we could have seen behind her happy show that she put on and…
and done something. It’s been really hard to focus on much else since the news yesterday. Though I muddled my way through things yesterday…
I’m still crying at random, just little things spark my memory of her and… the hurt is so intense.
Please, whatever else you do today. Do this for me?
Tell your friends you love them. Your children. Your family.
Reach out to anyone you know may be having a hard time. Let them know you care and are there if they need you.
Do it every day. Don’t take for granted anyone… Because… in the end..
You just… will never know when… something like this may happen.
It’s so sudden. So tragic. Somehow… it has to be at least… somewhat preventable right?